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While a lot of that post makes sense, I think some of it also sums up to simple anxiety, as silly of an excuse as that seems like. He always has seemed to be an anxious person, and since I am one myself, I go through a bit of the same issues at times. You know, like not doing a project or not going somewhere, etc., just because I automatically jump to the worst possible conclusions of what can happen, and just decide that simply not doing it is better than doing it and fucking up. I love my friends and I love my family, but at times I have let them down just because I allowed my anxiety to control my actions. That's obviously not the best way to live life, and I'm getting better at it all the time, but some people simply just let that anxiety rule them-- and that may just be the case here (or part of it, anyway). Sad but true.
Also, you know when you find a quote that totally fits a situation and you're like "Holy shit.

". Just happened to me with this topic:
"Many people die with their music still in them. Too often it is because they are always getting ready to live. Before they know it, time runs out."
~Oliver Wendell Holm
Hm... I think that's going to be my new sig.
