Arianddu wrote:Wow, I can't imagine blowing off an old friend because of shit that happened 26 years ago. I'd at least have made small talk for a few minutes. 'Snot healthy to carry that much baggage for so long.
There is so much to the story that I've not discussed so I can understand how you do not really understand the situation that I was in. Actually I carried the baggage around up until 2005. The baggage was missing her, thinking about her and keeping important things like all her letters and the last letter that she wrote to me, which I kept that in the leather jacket that I had bought when her and I were together. In 2005, my girlfriend and I decided to get married, so even though I had my girlfriend since 1988, I still kept that smoldering ember of a memory of my first girlfriend in high school somewhat alive. I guess I did it because I invisioned that someday I would run into her again and I would present her with this stuff to prove that I meant it when I told her that I loved her in high school. So in 2005 after making the commitement to my now wife, I made that decision to let go of everything that I kept in memory of my high school sweetheart. And it was at that point when I couldn't care completely less about this chick I used to date in high school. Why would I want to jeopardize my relationship with my wife by talking to this chick? Sure you can say that just talking to someone won't create a problem, but I conduct myself even when I am alone as though my wife is standing right there next to me. I'm sure my wife wouldn't want me to strike up a conversation with the chick. And I wouldn't want my wife to strike up a conversation with someone she dated before me. My wife and I are alike in that way, we don't have any desire to talk with people who we once dated before our relationship. There really is no significant purpose or reason to do so anyways.
Maybe you can now understand, or maybe not. Take it or leave it.
