Sad news... RockinDeano R.I.P.

[Moon Beam]

Lady Lula I'm praying for you and Wyatt.
I know that life will again be wonderful for you both.
I tried to read that book to my youngest Son a couple weeks
ago because he really loves it and I had to stop because I couldn't
control my eye leaks.
You are on my mind daily and in my heart always.

[Todd H]

Just logged on for the first time in a long time to find out Deano has passed. Terrible news. Condolences to his family.

[Deb]

i'm home with Wyatt, we're recovering from a nasty stomach virus and as I was posting I realized today marks a month since Dean left us.

The tears still flow. The silence is deafening. Being a single parent sucks. Dean gave us so much, never realized it all until his departure. The vacancy in our lives is huge and can never be filled. I am trying so hard to be mommy and daddy, and quite honestly, I am so tired, just worn out. Wyatt's passion for trains and enjoyment of music, especially Bruce, is a constsnt reminder of the everlasting contribution Dean made to Wyatt's little life. As the days go by I try my best and give my all, still cannot believe or accept that Dean is gone.
Andrew's words, his description of Dean and "getting" him could have been written by me, he is so right on. I am grateful that Andrew truly knew Dean and was a good friend to him. I got Dean, he let me in, and I loved him through it all. We shared so many laughs, fears, dreams, and the most amazing experience of the birth of our twins. Dean was misunderstood by most, his defense mechanism rarely let him be true to himself and his pain was great. I know the goodness he was, the neverending supply of love for his son, and his desire to be loved. We had a short 6 years together. I joined MR to tell him off. Two days later we met and had a 7 hour date, lol. never looked back.

Not to mention that little face. Looks alot like Dean in that cute little profile pic. Just floors me everytime I see a new pic, he has grown soooo much. Sending you both a 'virtual' warm embrace. So sorry for your struggles right now, but I know one thing for sure, you are an outstanding Mother and that little boy is very much loved. Hehe soooo many aunties and uncles spread around the world, and even a nana or two.

[Lula]

thank you all for your very kind words. Susie your insight and wisdom are so appreciated, thank you.

i should update my profile pic, but don't have the whole photobucket thing down Dean did all that.

[Lula]

:cry: Lady Lula I'm praying for you and Wyatt.
I know that life will again be wonderful for you both.
I tried to read that book to my youngest Son a couple weeks
ago because he really loves it and I had to stop because I couldn't
control my eye leaks.
You are on my mind daily and in my heart always.

my dear sweet moonie! you too are in my heart always.

what book?

[DrFU]

i'm home with Wyatt, we're recovering from a nasty stomach virus and as I was posting I realized today marks a month since Dean left us.

The tears still flow. The silence is deafening. Being a single parent sucks. Dean gave us so much, never realized it all until his departure. The vacancy in our lives is huge and can never be filled. I am trying so hard to be mommy and daddy, and quite honestly, I am so tired, just worn out. Wyatt's passion for trains and enjoyment of music, especially Bruce, is a constsnt reminder of the everlasting contribution Dean made to Wyatt's little life. As the days go by I try my best and give my all, still cannot believe or accept that Dean is gone.
Andrew's words, his description of Dean and "getting" him could have been written by me, he is so right on. I am grateful that Andrew truly knew Dean and was a good friend to him. I got Dean, he let me in, and I loved him through it all. We shared so many laughs, fears, dreams, and the most amazing experience of the birth of our twins. Dean was misunderstood by most, his defense mechanism rarely let him be true to himself and his pain was great. I know the goodness he was, the neverending supply of love for his son, and his desire to be loved. We had a short 6 years together. I joined MR to tell him off. Two days later we met and had a 7 hour date, lol. never looked back.

You two had the courage to go for it despite the problems -- and got six years of all the passion, joy, shit, and drama that is real life lived fully. And you got your boys. Too many people hang back and miss out and then regret it. Good for you, Lula.

[Seven Wishes2]

I miss Dean every damned day. Fuck. This place will never be the same.

The world was a better place with him here.

[Moon Beam]

my dear sweet moonie! you too are in my heart always.

what book?

The book you sent me silly Senorita.

[Lula]

oh that book! i had to send it to you!! so glad your boy enjoys it. you are truly a delightful loving friend <3

[Seven Wishes2]

Much love to you and yours, Lula.

Dean was a great man. He's in my heart every day.

[artist4perry]

i'm home with Wyatt, we're recovering from a nasty stomach virus and as I was posting I realized today marks a month since Dean left us.

The tears still flow. The silence is deafening. Being a single parent sucks. Dean gave us so much, never realized it all until his departure. The vacancy in our lives is huge and can never be filled. I am trying so hard to be mommy and daddy, and quite honestly, I am so tired, just worn out. Wyatt's passion for trains and enjoyment of music, especially Bruce, is a constsnt reminder of the everlasting contribution Dean made to Wyatt's little life. As the days go by I try my best and give my all, still cannot believe or accept that Dean is gone.
Andrew's words, his description of Dean and "getting" him could have been written by me, he is so right on. I am grateful that Andrew truly knew Dean and was a good friend to him. I got Dean, he let me in, and I loved him through it all. We shared so many laughs, fears, dreams, and the most amazing experience of the birth of our twins. Dean was misunderstood by most, his defense mechanism rarely let him be true to himself and his pain was great. I know the goodness he was, the neverending supply of love for his son, and his desire to be loved. We had a short 6 years together. I joined MR to tell him off. Two days later we met and had a 7 hour date, lol. never looked back.

Lula he loved you more than you will ever know. You and Wyatt were his world. I did not know him very well truth be told, except for our correspondence here and on facebook chat. I do know what resoundingly came across even when he was so distraught. He loved you both so much. I hope you don't mind me sharing that with you. I hope you both are doing O.K. despite all the heartache. I think he had a way of moving people that he even knew for a short time that made them feel at home with him. He hat such a big heart and had a way of making you smile, even when he made you so exasperated! Hugs Lula.

[BobbyinTN]

I haven't been here in a while and to read this just breaks my heart. My heartfelt condolences to his family. He was always pretty cool with me and we agreed on many things. I do feel privileged that he was rude to me at least once. LOL RIP Rockindeano. You are missed.

[BobbyinTN]

This is one of the PMs I got from him and wanted to share it. He was pretty amazing.

Message
Rockindeano
Posted: Tue Dec 21, 2010 5:24 am


Quote message
Good on You Bobby
I know you probably don't think too highly of me, but I do want to say that i stand with you on the homosexual stuff here. i think you are a brave guy ti face this and be as proud as you are. I think it is a shame someone has to "come out" in this country. It shouldn't be that big a deal.

Anyway, I am in a rush and am typing this too fast, but I am trying to tell you I support you and fellow gay men. I will always defend you against the bigoted people on here...

Good on you Bobby.

PS- did you serve in in the US military?




This was my reply.




BobbyinTN
Posted: Tue Dec 21, 2010 10:05 am


Re: Good on You Bobby
I actually admire you a lot too. I've seen you rip people apart, but I know you're fighting on the side of what's right and you're pretty fuckin' cool.

Thank you for those great words, I do appreciate them.

No, I've not been in the military but I have many friends who are in and a family member joining this coming March, she's just turning 21, came out in her teens and is remarkable and so that's why this repeal means a great deal to me. My friends are awesome people and to seeing them have to hide who they are has been awful.

Thank you again Deano for being a voice of reason on this otherwise right wing nut job forum.
I think you and I agree about 99% of the time.


Have a great rest of the week and happy holidays!![quote][/quote]


By the way, he did mention names of those who are bigoted, I decided to delete those, but I love him even more for letting me know who was trust worthy.

[Arianddu]

Sigh - saw this -> http://www.cracked.com/video_18405_sex-as-understood-by-adolescent-boys.html and my first thought was "Got to post this on MR: wonder what comments Dean will come up with..." and then remembered. And you know, as sad as I was to remember he's gone, I'm still glad funny stuff makes me think of him.

[Lula]

You two had the courage to go for it despite the problems -- and got six years of all the passion, joy, shit, and drama that is real life lived fully. And you got your boys. Too many people hang back and miss out and then regret it. Good for you, Lula.

this is truly appreciared. thanks doc

[conversationpc]

By the way, he did mention names of those who are bigoted, I decided to delete those, but I love him even more for letting me know who was trust worthy.

I hope I was not one of those he considered bigoted. Both he and I butted heads a lot but he still respected me and told me so behind the scenes. Wish I'd have had the chance to meet him in person.

[BobbyinTN]

By the way, he did mention names of those who are bigoted, I decided to delete those, but I love him even more for letting me know who was trust worthy.

I hope I was not one of those he considered bigoted. Both he and I butted heads a lot but he still respected me and told me so behind the scenes. Wish I'd have had the chance to meet him in person.

I don't think you were one of them. Yes, I'd love to have met him too.

[Andrew]

Yes, I'd love to have met him too.

It was an experience

[stevew2]

By the way, he did mention names of those who are bigoted, I decided to delete those, but I love him even more for letting me know who was trust worthy.

I hope I was not one of those he considered bigoted. Both he and I butted heads a lot but he still respected me and told me so behind the scenes. Wish I'd have had the chance to meet him in person.

I don't think you were one of them. Yes, I'd love to have met him too.

Me to Bobby tn

[Don]

By the way, he did mention names of those who are bigoted, I decided to delete those, but I love him even more for letting me know who was trust worthy.

I hope I was not one of those he considered bigoted. Both he and I butted heads a lot but he still respected me and told me so behind the scenes. Wish I'd have had the chance to meet him in person.

I don't think you were one of them. Yes, I'd love to have met him too.

Me to Bobby tn

How's the kid, Stevew? You guys doing alright?

[stevew2]

i'm home with Wyatt, we're recovering from a nasty stomach virus and as I was posting I realized today marks a month since Dean left us.

The tears still flow. The silence is deafening. Being a single parent sucks. Dean gave us so much, never realized it all until his departure. The vacancy in our lives is huge and can never be filled. I am trying so hard to be mommy and daddy, and quite honestly, I am so tired, just worn out. Wyatt's passion for trains and enjoyment of music, especially Bruce, is a constsnt reminder of the everlasting contribution Dean made to Wyatt's little life. As the days go by I try my best and give my all, still cannot believe or accept that Dean is gone.
Andrew's words, his description of Dean and "getting" him could have been written by me, he is so right on. I am grateful that Andrew truly knew Dean and was a good friend to him. I got Dean, he let me in, and I loved him through it all. We shared so many laughs, fears, dreams, and the most amazing experience of the birth of our twins. Dean was misunderstood by most, his defense mechanism rarely let him be true to himself and his pain was great. I know the goodness he was, the neverending supply of love for his son, and his desire to be loved. We had a short 6 years together. I joined MR to tell him off. Two days later we met and had a 7 hour date, lol. never looked back.

He bought sure brought a lot of fun times to alot of people.He was a good guy as you know.You hang in there!!!

[artist4perry]

Welcome back Steve! How is Carl?

I love this post.

The women around here are getting way too catty.
BTW, who are you?

Nope, Carl is a fixture as much as SteveW

[stevew2]

By the way, he did mention names of those who are bigoted, I decided to delete those, but I love him even more for letting me know who was trust worthy.

I hope I was not one of those he considered bigoted. Both he and I butted heads a lot but he still respected me and told me so behind the scenes. Wish I'd have had the chance to meet him in person.

I don't think you were one of them. Yes, I'd love to have met him too.

Me to Bobby tn

How's the kid, Stevew? You guys doing alright?

Doing better, its been a rough haul,been though hell and back.Still alive to tell about. Good to see some familier faces here. I miss Deano calling me a pussy, lol.Nice to hear from you DON ??? lol

[Majestic]

I haven't been here in a while, but am shocked and saddened to learn of Deano's departure. I didn't know him personally or have much direct interaction with him, but it is impossible to to be around this place long without knowing who he was, his persona was larger than life. Sometimes he reminded me of the high school bully, you know the guy who might mock you because of your favorite band or the shoes you wore, but I had the feeling that it was all in fun and that he had a big heart and loved to joke around and keep things lively. I will miss his presence here, and to his family and those of you here were fortunate enough know him and call him friend, my heart felt condolences. I know he goes on and that a piece of him still lives is in the hearts of each of you and all ways will.

[rockinfayrose]

I haven't been here in a while, but am shocked and saddened to learn of Deano's departure. I didn't know him personally or have much direct interaction with him, but it is impossible to to be around this place long without knowing who he was, his persona was larger than life. Sometimes he reminded me of the high school bully, you know the guy who might mock you because of your favorite band or the shoes you wore, but I had the feeling that it was all in fun and that he had a big heart and loved to joke around and keep things lively. I will miss his presence here, and to his family and those of you here were fortunate enough know him and call him friend, my heart felt condolences. I know he goes on and that a piece of him still lives is in the hearts of each of you and all ways will.

You're right, Dean always riled people up out of fun, not malice. He may have been the first to call one out for their strange likes or different beliefs, but at the same time made you feel like you could really be yourself around him and he would accept you for who you are. He did love pushing people out of their comfort zone, and personally I'm so grateful for that. I think he made an unerasable mark in the lives of all those that knew him, and even those that didnt know him well or only met him once know exactly who you're talking about at a mention (I laugh how those that didn't know Dean by name, always refer to him as "the tall guy" or "the guy with good teeth" as my friend at work does.) Dean's presence certainly was so strong and so irreplaceable. To me, there has been a solemn silence to this board and to life now...MR needed Dean on it, my life needed Dean in it - the loss, the finality continues to be so painful Sorry, but I just needed a place tonight to let out the grief.

[Rick]

I haven't been here in a while, but am shocked and saddened to learn of Deano's departure. I didn't know him personally or have much direct interaction with him, but it is impossible to to be around this place long without knowing who he was, his persona was larger than life. Sometimes he reminded me of the high school bully, you know the guy who might mock you because of your favorite band or the shoes you wore, but I had the feeling that it was all in fun and that he had a big heart and loved to joke around and keep things lively. I will miss his presence here, and to his family and those of you here were fortunate enough know him and call him friend, my heart felt condolences. I know he goes on and that a piece of him still lives is in the hearts of each of you and all ways will.

You're right, Dean always riled people up out of fun, not malice. He may have been the first to call one out for their strange likes or different beliefs, but at the same time made you feel like you could really be yourself around him and he would accept you for who you are. He did love pushing people out of their comfort zone, and personally I'm so grateful for that. I think he made an unerasable mark in the lives of all those that knew him, and even those that didnt know him well or only met him once know exactly who you're talking about at a mention (I laugh how those that didn't know Dean by name, always refer to him as "the tall guy" or "the guy with good teeth" as my friend at work does.) Dean's presence certainly was so strong and so irreplaceable. To me, there has been a solemn silence to this board and to life now...MR needed Dean on it, my life needed Dean in it - the loss, the finality continues to be so painful Sorry, but I just needed a place tonight to let out the grief.

No need to apologize, Fay, this is the place to do that. I'm so glad I got to meet Deano. He, Lula, Rip, his wife, my wife and I had a great day just strolling down Las Vegas Blvd. He was one of the funniest people I've ever known. He, and the open, let it fly type of atmosphere here are reasons I joined this board. You're very right in saying this board is missing something with him not here. He would take his sabbaticals from here at times, but when you realize he won't be returning, it's very different. It still doesn't even seem real to me.

[steveo777]

While we all know he had a desire to exit, god and him only know why. Dean's passing has caused me to revisit my true purposes in life and prioritize.
I've been lower than bug shit in my life and I feel somewhat higher now, but not ideal. Things like this just make us realize how fragile we really are.
We are nobody until we care about ourselves, then and only then, can we care for others.

[Ratgirl]

I haven't been here in a while, but am shocked and saddened to learn of Deano's departure. I didn't know him personally or have much direct interaction with him, but it is impossible to to be around this place long without knowing who he was, his persona was larger than life. Sometimes he reminded me of the high school bully, you know the guy who might mock you because of your favorite band or the shoes you wore, but I had the feeling that it was all in fun and that he had a big heart and loved to joke around and keep things lively. I will miss his presence here, and to his family and those of you here were fortunate enough know him and call him friend, my heart felt condolences. I know he goes on and that a piece of him still lives is in the hearts of each of you and all ways will.

You're right, Dean always riled people up out of fun, not malice. He may have been the first to call one out for their strange likes or different beliefs, but at the same time made you feel like you could really be yourself around him and he would accept you for who you are. He did love pushing people out of their comfort zone, and personally I'm so grateful for that. I think he made an unerasable mark in the lives of all those that knew him, and even those that didnt know him well or only met him once know exactly who you're talking about at a mention (I laugh how those that didn't know Dean by name, always refer to him as "the tall guy" or "the guy with good teeth" as my friend at work does.) Dean's presence certainly was so strong and so irreplaceable. To me, there has been a solemn silence to this board and to life now...MR needed Dean on it, my life needed Dean in it - the loss, the finality continues to be so painful Sorry, but I just needed a place tonight to let out the grief.

That's what always got me about Dean.. he was rough around the edges but once you got to know him he had a heart a gold. I am thankful I got to know the type of person Dean truly was. He will be missed.

[stevew2]

While we all know he had a desire to exit, god and him only know why. Dean's passing has caused me to revisit my true purposes in life and prioritize.
I've been lower than bug shit in my life and I feel somewhat higher now, but not ideal. Things like this just make us realize how fragile we really are.
We are nobody until we care about ourselves, then and only then, can we care for others.

Thats deep Steveo< I ve been kinda been thinkin the same thing.Im goin try to cut back on my drinkin,be a better example for my daughter.

[Lula]

please know that Dean did not take his life. it is true he battled depression and sank pretty dang low several times. he loved wyatt more than life and gave him everything. wyatt gave dean hope and promise. wyatt filled dean's heart with love. life pretty much sucks lately lol. it seems that wyatt is beginning to process what has happened. we will be in support groups come may, they wait 2 months for the little ones, makes sense as he is just seeming to digest our reality and new way of living.

Fay, you were an integral part of dean's life. he loved you, cared for you, and counted on you. we will have many celebrations together my dear. <3