Andrew wrote:Respect folks. Marcie has been thru more than most of us ever will. I'm glad thrilled she's back. What a voice.
I think this says everything...and more.
http://www.lazyrocker.com/index.php?opt ... &Itemid=66
After the ‘Tormented’ album there was a long time of silence around you. You made an impressive decision in your life which takes a lot of courage. How do you look back at that time in your life ?
Marcie: Well, I really had no choice in the matter. It was either be true to myself, or die at that point. My drinking and drugging to numb the pain of being me had taken it’s toll and were not working any longer. I couldn’t’ go on if I wanted to live. After “Tormented” I needed to be alone and start a new life. Music became a part of my past. When it got down to it, I looked back on why I wanted to be famous and it all made sense to me. I had to be loved on such a grand scale so as to prove to myself and my parents, who I secretly thought hated me, that I was worthy of love because I did not love who I was.
In fact I loathed who I was born as. I had no self esteem. I needed to find myself and learn how to give myself the love that I so desperately sought from others. With my faith firmly planted in God and things worthy of praise and self esteem, I was able to venture out in the world slowly but surely. Today I know that I am on the right life path. Because it led me to being back with my natal family as well as my musical family Bruce, Guy, Jay and Larry. I couldn’t be more happy. Finally! Thank you GOD!!!!! I guess the moral of the story is, “Learn to love yourself, and THEN you will be able to love others.”
and here...
http://www.melodicrock.com/interviews/marciefree.html
Just how dark did things get for you Marcie?
If I could've wished myself back to heaven instead of living my life as I am I would have. I never had the courage to actually harm myself. But I thought about it many times.
Yet, you had the courage to make that decision....
Courage or desperation? I think I had no choice in the matter. If I would've continued my life as Mark I would have died for sure.