by Rockindeano » Wed May 24, 2006 2:25 am
I need to say something, if that's ok.
I just had a very pleasant PM exchange with a Styx poster who has always been overly kind to me, and she gave me some good advice and some good criticism.
I was told that I was being vague. I kind of thought that, but I also at the same time thought I was making enough of a convincing argument. Apparently not.
Here is what I would like to say on this matter. After reading back through the entire week or so, I do see how "vague" I have been. It's easy for me to think I am putting enough out there, because I myself know the story.
Here is the reason for my vagueness. I feel horrible telling my thoughts publicly like this, yet the feeling I have internally about this breaks my heart. I loved Journey, and actually still do. It doesn't matter if it's Steve Perry or Steve Augeri or Steve Whomever. It's JOURNEY.
When I was hinting around, I only wanted to get a little talk going on. I knew it would grow, but I didn't know when and I didn't know it would grow this intense and this hot. I felt uncomfortable when others would say "spill it." I was and am not angry with those members, as I understand their questioning. It's just that I felt horrible when I was writing out my posts, while telling of certain evidential intricacies, I definetely held back, because I felt like I was hurting a family member. I visualized the band members' faces, and thought, "why are you doing this?" In a way, I never wanted to believe the truth. I didn't want this to be true. Well.............
I am doing this because it is flatout wrong. I am doing this because I respected Journey, fought for Journey against critics, paid tons of money to see them, bought T shirts, and CD's and other stuff; I want them to get it right. I honestly believe that no band shall get a free pass on making boatloads of money at less than average work skills, or cheating at it. The only difference between this case and the Barry Bonds case, is Journey is getting it done artificially but they aren't getting it done with straight A's. They are barely getting by.
If they would have just gotten through the 30th anniversary tour and stopped it, I would have been ok, and not mumbled a word about it. But then the Chile show and the Hawaii private gig sent me over the edge. This next tour is the key. I have no idea what they will do. Perhaps Augeri's voice will be improved, or have been made healthy, I certainly hope so. Nothing would make me happier to see Journey blow Def Leppard off the stage. However, do it right. Do it without the BS.
The PM exchange I had with my Styx friend was enlightening. I mentioned to her that this was overly killing me internally. When I mentioned that I felt as if I was hurting a family member, she said I am not important enough to the situation....and of course she is right. I never claimed to be, however, I always need to return to that cocoon of honesty in times of indirection. I chose that route this time, and now must live with the fact that I have done so.
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Rockindeano on Wed May 24, 2006 4:11 am, edited 4 times in total.
