by Blueskies » Thu Oct 25, 2007 1:21 am
I just moved and haven't been on the net.. I'm just hearing of this now so I'm writing this with the news of your son's passing fresh to me so I'll try to get my thoughts expressed as well as I can in this moment......
I could start off by saying I'm sorry for your loss...I guess thats what we all say when we don't know what else to say and how we should respond to someone's pain......but I'm not going to say I'm sorry for your loss because I don't feel you've lost anything, I feel you have gained much...I'm not sorry,,,, I'm happy for the time you had with little Trevor..there were so many times he could have gone from you much sooner and you would not have known and seen him at all. I'm happy for the time you did have because it was enough to know of him to give a story to pass on to others in the lesson of love.
Although his physical time with you was all to brief I'm sure you both appreciate the time you were given and wouldn't give back one second of it for all the world despite the pain and the cost. He went through much and was very strong and determined to live long enough to leave you with something...I'm sure he would have grown into a fine man. I'm sure he has made you proud with his tanacity, strength and fighting spirit. You are understandably sad because you wanted more from him and more time with him....we do with who we love and don't want to let go. We question the why...why did it have to be this way...why was he taken from us so soon...why?...You'll feel pain, confusion and anger because you feel he has been taken from you,,,, in time you will come to accept, and hopefully understand it all in a way and it was well worth the the price financially, the time and effort spent, the emotions,.the pain...I'm sure you both will say yes, it was worth it all to have known the love of him and in what he brought to you and have you share together....and wouldn't trade this experience for all the world. So don't be sorry for any of it and don't mourn him...take all that he has given you and give thanks in return....honor him in celebrating the life that he had. He has not really left you at all as long as you don't forget what he brought to you and always keep him in your hearts.
Children are the angels...they come into the world with the innocense....they are a beautiful painting of brilliant hues of the colors of purity, of trust, of belief, of honesty, of hope and dreams..with the innocense of unconditional love....something that is true...it is the ways of the world that corrupts these things over time and takes them away from us... if we become too jaded that it exists and let it happen to us. Trevor has shown you that these things do exist and are there for us to get back to and to experience again....he has shown you the innocense of a child again and unconditional love...he brought these things for you to experience...this is a great gift so embrace it and cherish it..learn from it and keep his spirit and his gift of love in your hearts so you can give it to Wyatt and all others in your life.
Yes, it's sad that Trevor's life was so short but in his short time here he knew and experienced what we all spend a lifetime trying to understand, learn and experience....what life is really all about...our true purpose here...to learn to give and receive love unconditionally. We are born of it and lose sight along the way from hurts and misunderstandings from others who have lost their way and have strayed far from it....then we have to search for where it remains to get back to trust and find what's geniune,..real and honest emotion again. We have to find our way back to the wonderment and purity of the hearts of children. Little Trevor had it within him...only that purity..untainted..which he gave and brought out in you. He fullfilled his purpose in this life by teaching you empathy,,, compassion,,, how to freely give of yourself totally to another...out of pure love without any binding ties and unadulterated. He served his purpose in showing you how it feels so you can continue to give it to yourselve's and others.
Trevor also was sent to serve a larger purpose to many more . He has opened the hearts of all who have met you and all who read this board. We have all learned from him and his purpose has been served by the compassion and caring that has been brought out of all here and the love that has and continues to be shown here. Even in not meeting him but only thru words and pictures and the knowing of him ...it has opened the hearts of many...there could not be a better purpose then to be able to touch the hearts and souls of others and to show them a lesson in compassion and leaving this gift of love to be shared. I feel humbled in knowing of your son and am touched and crying...but not out of sadness...out of the joy of seeing his purpose fullfilled..in touching my heart with the empathy for others and in seeing the love that is being given and passed between once strangers. Yes, a great purpose fullfilled, a life worth living...he was a gift given to you and then shared with us all...I thank him.
So don't mourn a loss because you have lost nothing...you have gained so much...he has enriched your lives with love and in learning to give it unconditionally. We have all gained from him so rejoice and celebrate his life, be thankful for him and never forget what he has given you. It is now there for you to give back to his brother and all others in your life. .......
....thank you little Trevor....you will now live on forever in all the hearts that you have touched....thank you for sharing the love...live on baby boy.