by Rockindeano » Sat Jul 02, 2011 6:13 am
Oh what the fuck is this? Blueskies leading an online intervention of sorts in my honour? Who died and made you judge me or others for that matter? Only God judges, cunthole! I don't sit in judgment of anyone. Sure, I give my 2 cents on assholes like Neal, Azoff and RobbieG, but I also give kudos to sweet people like Lynn, Melissa and Deb from Calgary....and at the same time, although certain people here irritate me to no fucking end, like S2M and Tito, they are good guys who I apologize to if I light em up. Your point about me doing drugs and alcohol is interesting. After all, have you installed a Deano Cam in my room, car and workplace? Maybe because I come on here and do tell the truth? Yes, I do pound the living shit out of Natty Ice, and I do take heaping amounts of pain killers(because of um, pain?). What's YOUR excuse for being an all mighty prophet/lord/queen?
This is a Goddamned message board. Do I know I am the most hated here? Absolutely I do. I am the most popular so I take that in stride. I do know there are some who do like me too. I have been very rude and mean to certain people, and when necessary, be it online or in real life, have apologized and forged on. other times IMO, I have been very gracious too. Ask the many who I recorded the Direct TV show and mailed it out to wanting fans on my dime? How about me doing the same for the generations project, where many couldn't get the disc, but I could, so I did my best to distribute it. I gave away passes and tickets to people who wanted/needed them, where I could have sold them had I wanted beer money. Not a saint by any stretch, and yes I am an asshole, but for you to sit here and predict my demise Blueskies is a bit like Nostradamus.
Some here have heard from my mouth directly about my current status of being clinically deeply depressed and suicidal. Yes, it is true. I am coping the best I know how. I attempted and obviously failed, three times to commit suicide, as recently as 2 weeks ago. Why am I telling you this (you in particular Blueskies), is perhaps you are onto something, but maybe you should be careful on how you say certain things. it is kind of like making a joke about S2M's mother for laughs, only to find out she recently passed away. Not cool and cruel to Sean.
I have told my situation privately and deeply to 2 people on here, one male and one female. By our online banter, you would never figure out the female (I have tremendous respect for her knowledge and intelligence and now for her kindness). The male was none other than Mr. McNeice (and his lovely wife). In any event, yes, I am fucked up, and yes I can deal it out harshly on the board, but I can't stand by here quietly, or lay down for that matter, as this Board succumbs to BT leftovers and Pineda fans lolz and all that shit, to overrun the once great MR. I love Pineda, think he is a great guy, but sadly, and I firmly believe this, his fanbase lowers the integrity of the Journey fan base. They have no respect for the legacy, the body of work and the Classic years, and I have a problem with that.
Andrew, this is America, the land of second chances. You IMHO, really need to consider reinstating AR, Joeydelight, Joe Reardon and Journeytroll. Put 'em all on a short leash...but give em a chance to participate. There are so many good posters who are still registered here, yet choose to not post because the boredom is so great. Perfect example- Red13JoePa. Is there a nicer guy on here than he? Yeah, he ia a touch gay for his Augeri man love and his forgiveness of tapegate, but we need to get his ilk back on here and fight off the BT maggots who have come here.
Oh and Blueskies, darling, I have written a few suicide notes/letters... one for Lula, three others for my kids, Cheyanna, Bruce and Wyatt, and a general one for everyone else. I'll make sure it gets posted here before I do what I shouldn't do. I'll make sure you get a personalized copy, Phyllis, so you can celebrate my death..